Superstition? Timid?

People said Cantonese are more superstition, don't know how true is it, but I admit I'm quite superstition - By the way, I'm Cantonese.

Since I was a kid, I used to hear the bedtime story. Your bedtime maybe is Snow White or Cinderella, but mine was 18 tier hell story. Still recall I was slept with my young aunt, this was one of her educational method to teach me not to lie and be good. This may not be recommended, in fact, every time I think of telling a big lie, the picture of man's tongue being stabbed will rise in my mind.

I admit that I'm a timid sheep, I afraid of every thing. I afraid of insect, afraid of animal except my puppy. You may guess I of course afraid of those "unseen thing". But life such a game, my job is meant to travel around, and staying alone in the hotel. People who know me would surprise that how could a girl like me could stand to stay in the hotel alone! Frankly speaking, I could never imagine that I could cope with it as well. If my house has a power cut, I'm the first one scream and yell for help. Funny is even my sister is braver and always look for me.

Still recall the first time watching horror movie at cinema with my best friends. There were 4 girls, we fought for sitting in the middle, we crouched our feet and shrink into oneself. None of us has actually watched all scenes, in fact most of time, we had covered our eyes. We don't even dare to lay down the feet to leave the cinema. At least we can tell that we ever watch horror movie in cinema, and the price paid was Mei's blouse sleeves being torn after dragging by us - was that me? Can't remember though =P

I always obey those rules or "pantang larang" that help me for staying "safe" in hotel. But I hate to receive friends' forwarded mail that reminding me the "possible risk" or anything regards this sensitive matter. Thanks for your kindness, but please keep it for yourselves, I think my awareness should be enough to help.

I believe in fortune telling, but I don't like to get to know my future or preexistence. What if he says that I will go through a tough life, a predestined fate, I really don't know what to do with it, cause I may believe it. The most I can accept is the fortune sticks (求签). Once a year, my family will go pray in a same locally famous temple. Believe it or not, the fortune sticks I got from that temple is quite accurate.

When I was going to have my SPM, the fortune stick told me that no matter how hard work I am, I will not get a satisfied result. This was quite a big impact for me, but I didn't give up, I work harder and harder, try to change my fate. The result? It's true, I didn't get my satisfied result. My sister had a good fortune, it says that she can just take it easy, the result will always satisfactorily. And, it's true, she never expect she can get that good result.

I'm not advice the parents to bring their kid to fortune teller, we know that they kindness and favor, but they may not expect how could it impact them. You can take it positively or as an advice, but don't quit because you think that is your fate.

Heard from a radio station, Annie's mother took her for a fortune-telling while she was a kid. She had been told that she will not have a long lasting relationship, and will be blessedness if she married to an elder. Whenever she ended a relationship, she resigned that is her fate because the pursuer is young or same age as her. Mother's favor was not helping, and Annie took it seriously, it becomes a curse to her life. She is now with a married coach.

I think she takes that fortune-telling as an excuse for her mistake. She can choose her path and decide her own fate. I like the 90/10 Principle forwarded from my friend. It says 10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react. We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us. The other 90% is different. YOU determine the other 90%. Annie cannot control over what would fortune-teller says, but she can decide how to manage her relationship, how to say NO to that married coach and most important, say NO to herself.

Superstition or not? I believe in good fortune, and feel confidence in my life. But I will never give in to a bad fortune and always try to fight for better. Do you agree with me?